Go C-H-I-E-F-S!!

Some friends and I took advantage of the discount Chiefs tickets from our school district, and by advantage, I mean CHEAP! Our tickets were originally roughly $100 seats, and we paid $27!! Can’t beat that! We sat in the corner right off where the Chiefs run out of the tunnel. Even though our seats were great, Lindsay and Michelle and I spent most of our time patrolling for boys. :)



We all met up at Tim and Paul’s place to start our tailgate early. I can honestly say that I’ve never drank that early in the morning, but there’s a first time for everything I guess. Sonic made the tailgate that much easier by offering 99 cent slushies. Just add a little vodka, and we were good to go.

As we were having our own tailgate, Lindsay made some new friends (as always…) and asked them to take our picture. I’m sure they were thrilled.


Michelle, Paul, and Cathy couldn’t wait to get into the new and improved stadium.

Lindsay just had to jump in and be a part of the show—our school Principal and Assistant Superintendent grilled out for the district. They knew we had been having a “good time” before we ever arrived to this particular tailgate.


I have no idea how this picture turned out, but I like it.

I figured since I was at the Chief’s game, I should take some pictures of the actual game. Here they are:

We are all going again this month, and I’m just hoping our seats are this good or even better. It won’t matter as long as we are having a blast together!

Empty regrets

I received some news last night, and I'm still trying to process it all. It's not bad news...actually, it is good news for those involved, but my brain and heart are having a hard time getting over the shock to the system. Todd, my ex-husband, is getting married in a month. This means, to me, a few things.
1) I am very happy for him. He found someone he loves, and I can't deny how good that feels. I want him to ultimately be happy. I saw a picture of the two of them together, and it did look like they truly were in love. Congrats to them! :)

2) When I think back to our last phone conversation (short, to the point) back in August after I had broken off the relationship with Arturo, I asked Todd about the dating world. In fact, I asked him, "Are you seeing anyone right now? How's dating life treating you?" His response was something like, "I'm not seeing anyone...I'm not sure how I will handle that in time." Hmmm...if they met 6 months or so ago, then that means he did not tell me the truth. There was no reason for him to lie, so what's the point? We had both moved on obviously, why lie about it?

3) This is the hardest part for me to wrap myself around. When I found out that Todd's fiance had a son, my first thought was Great! He will be such a good dad to that little boy! Then I started thinking...Todd's finally getting the family he always wanted. A wife and a son. Something I couldn't give him. This is the part that tears me up even now. I have moved on with my life. My heart has moved on from Todd. We are not the same people we were when we were married so long ago, and I don't want that old life back, but when I think about the baby issue...this is where we struggled for so long. We tried for 8+ years to get pregnant. I couldn't do it. Now he has found THE ONE for him with a ready-made family.

Does this make me sound horrible? I do wish them nothing but the best and even texted Todd to tell him congrats. Never heard back...

Oh, well. I've moved on but felt the need to get this out of my system. The best part of having this blog is that it doesn't show judgement. :)

Carrie Underwood...she can SING!!

Last night I experienced the Carrie Underwood show. Wow...that's really all I can say. She can sing and sing and sing. I think Carrie did a better job last night live than I have ever heard her on television. Wow...

Carrie's first opening act was a group called "Sons of Sylvia." They are a brother group (reminded me of a country Jonas Brothers :)) who won a little TV show back a couple of years ago. It was supposed to be an American Idol for groups, but apparently, it never picked up.  The boys, however, could rock!

Billy Currington was the second opening act, and although I had seen him before (he opened for Sugarland last year), he put on a good show too. He sang his most popular hits--"People are Crazy", "Good Directions", and "Pretty Good at Drinking Beer". Plus he performed a couple of his newest hits from his latest album. I may have to look those up!

Finally, Carrie Underwood came out. She popped up out of the floor, of course, singing and dancing on a seat. She opened with "Cowboy Casanova" and "Quitter".

Carrie was also entertaining the audience with her stories. She talked a little about her road to American Idol and how her life changed after the show.

Carrie also sang "Some Hearts", "Wasted", and "All-American Girl". I believe she also changed 5 or 6 times throughout the concert!

Probably the best moment of the show was her performance of "Jesus Take the Wheel". In the middle of the song, she stopped and started singing "How Great Thou Art." Looking back now, I wish that had been the song I'd recorded, but it was just so good. She gave me chills and definitely brough the house down with that song. Everyone cheered and whistled after that performance!

During the songs "Country Roads" (a John Denver cover) and "This Time", Carrie rode around on the back of a blue pickup. This was her time to get closer to the people like me--us in the back and sides who want a better view.

Carrie also brought the Grand Ole Opry from Nashville here to KC. She sang the duet "I Told You So" with video images of Randy Travis. That was a pretty cool moment, not only because I like that song, but how their two voices sounded together, even with just video recording of Randy Travis.

Carrie ended the show with two great ones--"Mama's Song" and "Last Name". During "Mama's Song", pictures of her wedding flashed on the screen behind her. I couldn't see them very well since I was sitting off to the side, but I knew that's what they were. Then Carrie encouraged all of us to sing along to "Last Name", and of course, I did! :)

Carrie came back to sing two songs during her encore--"Before He Cheats" (another one I sang every word!) and "Songs Like This".

This is Louis, my date for the evening. We are taking it slow and seeing where things go. I like him and think he is sweet. He is also really good with Soze, so he just earned double bonus points with me! :)

Driving me CRAZY!

I have no earthly idea how to get through to this woman. My mother crossed the line last night, and I literally don't know what to do about it. Screaming to her on the phone probably didn't help, but I was so upset over her actions that I couldn't think of anything else. I don't get angry very often, but I'd had it last night.

My mother has always been worried about me, that something bad will happen--getting kidnapped and raped/murdered, getting into a car accident and laying dead in a ditch somewhere along the road, etc. These are things she has NO control over. Mom usually calls me everyday, multiple times a day, and I don't know how to tell her to STOP. STOP. STOP. I've tried telling her, and it does no good.

Last night I went out with two friends for dinner and to see "Eat, Pray, Love." (Loved it by the way...) Apparently Mom called at 5 pm (eating dinner), then SIX--SIX--SIX MORE TIMES until she finally reached me in the theater restroom after the movie at 10:08 pm. She was completely over the top, worried, wondering where I was, etc. Mom even knew I was going to see a movie, but in her little world, the move would have been over by then. The kicker though????? She had left a message on my friend's cell phone, wondering where I was. How did she get my friend's cell phone number you ask? MOM CALLED MY EX-HUSBAND'S PARENTS AND GOT IT FROM THEM!!!!!!!!!!!! My EX-HUSBAND!?!?!?!?! I FREAKED out. I have NO IDEA what to do anymore. I REFUSE to call her every time I blink or take in a breath to let her know that I am still alive.

Somebody please help. Give me something. I love my mother dearly, as she probably really is my best friend, but this is NOT NORMAL. What can I do????

Need a new title

Since I've been at school this week, I haven't had time to sit down and write a new blog. Not that I have anything new or exciting to say, but I did want to write something just so I don't have to see my previous title of "Broken hearted" every time I log in. While I hope Arturo the best, and we have talked since the breakup about remaining friends, I just don't need to see the news flash constantly reminding me of one of the hardest decisions of my life thus far. I'm moving on, and I know he is too.

My classroom is finally beginning to take shape. Because I'm in the luxury trailer, the carpets weren't shampooed until this week, so I wasn't able to work at all until today. TODAY!?! School begins Wednesday, and I still have nothing ready to go. Due to back to school convocation and freshmen orientation on Monday, Tuesday will be it for me. The thought of only having one day to finish my room, laminate signs for this year, prepare for the beginning, make copies, and generally get my head back in the "real world" scares me a little, but I know Wednesday will come and go whether or not I'm prepared. That thought doesn't really help me either. :)

Broken hearted

How do you get over someone when you were the one who broke his heart? I have the constant urge to call him because I have talked to him every day for the past 5 1/2 months. How do you quit someone cold turkey? Apparently I'm not very good at it because I think of Arturo every day and pretty much every moment of every day. I would have spent the rest of my life with Arturo, and spent it happily, would it not have been for this one deal-breaker. It was something I just can't get past, no matter how much love is in my heart. I know it hurts both of us now, but I also know time will heal our wounds. Since there's no speeding up time, I have to deal with my pain the only way I know how--by sharing it and getting it out of my system.

Did I feel this badly when Joon and I parted ways? I knew then that there was nothing I could do to salvalge that relationship, but this one was all on me--it was my idea to end us. I was something I had wrestled with for a month or so until it festered in my mind and I had to make a final decision. No more wishy-washy. Now I have to live with my choice and know I hurt more than just me and him in the process.

Fight the temptation to call. Fight the temptation to call him and ask him to take me back. Fight the temptation to just say that I can ignore the deal-breaker and live the rest of my life always questioning and worrying about us. I cannot do that to myself or Arturo, or one day wake up and regret the life I chose. I know that about me, and I just can't live my life that way. I wish I could because it would be the easy way out now, but I'm trying to look ahead for my future. Call me selfish, but this is what I have to do for me. Sorry for me. So incredibly sorry for you.

Scrapbooking summer

I have been keeping myself busy scrapbooking this summer and trying to play catch-up with these pictures and memories. Before beginning, I sorted through a huge stack to find my starting point. I was backed up the start of 2009. That was a long time ago in terms of scrapbooking! :) However, I have done my best, and now can say that I am currently to March 2010, but I'm on hold for now because most of these pictures and memories involve Arturo. I definitely want to include these memories because they are a part of my life, but I'm just not sure how to approach them all, especially the "couple" pictures. Here is what I've done this summer--sorry about the picture quality. I had a hard time getting them to come out without the flash, and with the flash, there was a shiny spot. :( I also couldn't figure out how to add a caption to each page. :(

Mom and her grand-dog

Oklahoma City trip

Sugarland concert

"Rent" in St. Louis

 Zac Brown Band concert

Mom's retirement party